Monday, May 9, 2011

That's All Folks




















Maybe it's a sign.

My fathers initials are MJC.


My husbands initials are MJC


Maggie, Jane and Charlie are my own MJC.


All of our children have come with the help of Doctors and Nurses. After figuring out what we needed, they all came on the first or second try. I guess that gave me a false sense of security. We've tried for months to have another child. Each month taking a step further then before. More time consuming, more money, mores procedures, more pills, more shots, more pounds, more ultra sounds, more shuffling of my children and schedule and a lot more driving. It's been exhausting. Nothing worked.
I wanted a couple more.

I'm sad about it.


So the bright side is that I have three kids that we love. We are going to look forward to a lot of great memory making.

19 comments:

Pugs said...

Tami and I had never really talked about only having two, in fact three was the more likely number....until the second pregnancy that is.

When things turned south with her health again it was sort of dictated that this should be the last kid, well, last pregnancy.

On some level it was much easier to take because we didn't really have any hope otherwise. There wasn't an accepted or experimental drug or procedure that could help, it just was. Yet all the same, there was that nagging feeling of discomfort that it wasn't on "our terms".

So, while it does absolutely nothing to help you pass through the emotions, just know that you're not alone. There are many of us that can empathize, and we're here to support you however we can.

I'd also like to point out that I think you're a little crazy for wanting 5 or 6 kids since I haven't figured out how to deal with 2 yet. ;)

I also predict that at some point you all will be in a position where you will be able to help out an extremely needy child and will have to make a real decision about adoption. There are a lot of kids out there that would be extremely blessed living in your house, learning from your examples. Just because you won't be involved in gestation doesn't mean you can't have any more kids......

Val said...

So sorry to hear that you are having problems getting pregnant. I hope things work out for you! The pictures you posted are so cute. You have a beautiful family ~Valerie

Shannon said...

Oh Kimber, I'm so sorry. We love you guys! **hugs**

Anonymous said...

We are so sorry Kimber!! Us Hansens love you and your family the way they are!!

Anjeanette said...

I am there with you girl. After three cycles at In-vitro fertilization and it working twice, blessing us with three beautiful children, we realized we might be done. I am sad because, I, like you, wanted a couple more. I feel bad saying that, because some people have a hard time even getting one, and i have been blessed with three. People just always say, "you will know when you are done," and I can't fully say I feel that way. But we can't seem to have any more. ??? I feel your pain and Joy!

Debi said...

Kimmy, I am so sad for you and me. You have such beautiful and funny children and I really planned on them being provided for me forever. I just figured it would be a little harder to get Gus and Wyatt here, not that they couldn't come. I'm so sorry sis. I love you guys! Now I really wish you were closer.

Tara said...

Oh Kimber I wish I could give you a HUG--you deserve it and need it!

Unknown said...

Oh Aunt Kimmy, I love you! I know those procedures and how draining emotionally, physically, financially and spiritually they are. I'm sorry. And you do make such beautiful little ones. Come over and I'll give you a hug. Or better yet, maybe I should come out there and do it! ;) Love ya girl.

The Hansen's said...

Giant squeezes for all of you! I can't even imagine the emotions. I love you so much, you are so amazing.

kimmalee said...

Aunt Jane, I'm so sorry. I sure love your kids and never imagined you were going to be done. You're amazing.

Andrea said...

I know how much of a process it can be. I know it is hard to balance gratitude for what you have and the yearning for more. The time, money and emotions involved are difficult to deal with. I love you guys and I'm so sorry.

Nicole said...

I'm so sorry Kimber. I know the heartache of not being able to have another baby. You're an amazing mom and your kids are lucky to have you.

Cammi said...

Love all of you... the three you have sure are dang cute though... :)

Ro said...

i can't even imagine how hard, frustrating, emotionally draining and sad that is. you are the best mom in the world (mike is the best dad too of course) and your kids are so lucky to have you! they are adorable and i'm so grateful to know you and your cute family! our thoughts and prayers are with you!!

Tutz said...

My heart hurts for you. But never say never... Remember who is in charge. I love you.

Glenn Makechnie said...

Much love from Texas.

Chelsea said...

wow. what a mountain of emotions...and i can't say anything beyond it's really a shame there will be no more mixing of your genes and mike's. you sure make them right and i know you two are fabulous parents. hugs to you guys. hang in there.

Becca said...

Your family is beautiful and three is maybe not what you were planning but certainly nothing to be ashamed of. Some days I wonder if we'll make it to three. We may even go down to one I think some days... just kidding. Anyway, we love you and your MJC's:) You're the best.

Unknown said...

Oh Kimber!!! My mommy heart melts for you!!! i am so sorry. You are a great mommy and we are here for you. We love you guys and will keep you in our prayers and thoughts!!!! Please let me know if there is anything you need.